Day 32
11:34 pm, 9th May 2026
It's my birthday in 24 mins. I am turning 21. 21 huh.
Damn this year 20 was something... no time for recollection right now.
This is the year everything changes. Everything. infact not only year, everything changes in these next two months.
In the morning I talked to Aryan, they wanted to refer me for the activate ai fellowship. Then I went to the swimming pool, I just wanted to dive a little bit.
So i went to 1m, 3m, 5m, 7m, 10m. At the top, all I was telling myself was "go,go,go" thats all i was saying and then jumping.
That's all life is. Do not think too much at all, just "go,go,go".
damn, last 20 mins of year 20. Man I did do some cool things this year, 21 tho , im coming for it all. every single day is gonna be legendary. every single day bruh. let's get it. I'm back home for the summer, back in meerut.
2026 summer.
year 21.
oooooof, im so fucking pumped for this let's gooooooooo.
11:46 pm
The thing i've been doing for many years and that i like a lot is, the moment clock hits 12 and its my birthday, that exact moment i wanna be working, sorting of a signal for what I wanna be doing the entire year, working.
This year, let's start with math. math is the thing which has taken me this far till now. Kuku was saying this also, that life is crazy, i've been doing math and cs for the last 5 years but these next 2 months is the time when my life will suddenly change.
uhhh, lemme js start off the year w math, and infact napkin. letsgo.
11:54 pm
just gonna be reading napkin when i turn 21. man this is so fucking exciting like wow genuinely. my life man. this is my fucking life. i get to learn a bunch of cool math, make a bunch of cool projects. literally change the world and change my life in the process. allthewayup. so fucking excited for this summer and this year. i cant even imagine what i'll be by the end of this year.
1:58 pm, 11th May 2026
Yo we woke up today, last night id decided this is it, like i need to work every single moment, every single day. have no fucking distractions at all. and i mean life cant go on like this, at all, i do have a bunch of distractions, so i just decided. lastnight, we cutting it all off, imma wake up and use no internet and just get straight to work and work all day. and i mean there's a bunch of stuffi can say, but the fact is this is it. these are the moments that are it. these 2 months are gonna decide my entire fucking life. no going back. no plan b. no negotiation. all the way up!
2:09 pm
This summer I wanna get completely to the forefronts of ai,ml and do it the monymethod way. there's a bunch of stuff i need a really good background in a lot of math. like say linalg, ok i mean what i am right now is i sort of understand lin alg well, but in a very vibes way. i understand mostly all of math in a very vibes way, like i sort of have a vibe for what the objects are, how they act, how they're supposed to act, what you can do with them etc. and i mean since I'm really really good at problem solving, like one of the best in the world, this kinda works out for me. in say any math contest, like olympiad, since im really good at problem solving, sort of the vibes way just works for me. i've done this a bunch of times i mean, day31 nt exam , day 23 nt exam , I mean even JEE Adv. math, the thing i would do in all theese exams is, i would get a very basic overview of definitions of things, and then derive and solve everything in the exam hall only. i literally did this in jee adv too, i had studied very little of jee math, like conics, vector/3d, lin-alg, calc, complex, i mean everything, i never formally studied any of these, i just sort of had vibes for things, i understood a few key definitions, and then i solved all the problems in the exam from essentially first principles, and this worked out like, i got 100 in jee-adv math, or wtv exam, this always works out.
but anyways, this can't always work, i do want some serious theoretical backing so that i can learn even more cool math, cool cs, do the things i wanna do, solve the problems I wanna solve.
So that's why i'm ready to learn a bunch of stuff now.
starting off with lin alg, i wanna do napkin (evan chen) , prefetc book for me cos its very minimal, very difficult (as in it forces you to fill in all the understanding gaps youreslf), and the perfetc starting point. the thing w/ how linalg is done there is its a lot of abstract algebra you require. btw i have done a lot of the abstract algebra, lin alg sections of napkin, but i had done those the "vibes" way . now its time to do them frfr ; ok let's get it started. imma start at the very beginning.
8:13 pm
feeling on loop.
just came back from diving again. played 1's w/ kuku, life is genuinely perfect. just have fun, treat everything as fun, things aint that serious. idgaf about hoes, im locked tf in man. lesgoooo. imma update my blogging webapp soon. starting off w/ napkin chapter on groups.
8:20 pm
ok we just defined what a group is, i knew this alr. the symmetric group, ive studied a lot about permutations before too, lemme js go look up a few things about this from a combo book.
okay i mean f*g (x) = f(g(x)) that's pretty much all i wanted... like you read from left to right; to gind f*g (a) ; first aply g ie. a->g(a) then apply f; a->f(g(a)... ooh cant wait to get back to doing combo too.
8:37
I have a very unique and interesting intution about Dihedral groups, like it's tough to imagine the polygons and shit for me, so the way I look at it is
essentially instead of the whole polygon, I just look at it as oyu number them, and then just look at the apex vertex, and then you're either clockwise (+) or anti (-) , like look at the diagram, the 10 states are just entirely specfiedby apex vertex and direction. then it's very easy to look at what each of the $D_10$ elements do. so like if $\sim$ is a sign, and $\simeq$ is the opposite sign, then $r^k : (x)_{\sim} \rightarrow (x \simeq k)_{\sim}$ and $s : (x)_{\sim} \rightarrow (x)_{\simeq}$
9:04 pm
yea this is cool.... i'm now hopping on call with chaitanya to discuss our next project. life is genuinely perfect, i can wake up, do a bunch of difficult math, interesting math, cs, learn a bunch of stuff, make so many projects, genuinely perfect letsgooo.
5:17 am
FUCK THIS.
this is my fucking life right here. this summer, every single day decides my life. EVERY SIGNLE DAY.